Monday, 27 November 2006

• This day, November 26th, 11 years ago my life changed all by choice with a few words. 

  At 15 I sought after love and approval from guys.  I tied all my emotions up in what the new flavor of the week thought of me.  That soon left me empty and void.  Something in the last relationship I had caused a wall within my memory to come crashing down.  All the memories locked up behind it came flooding out.  The break up and flood of memories were too much.  I couldn't handle them and I couldn't process them.  Desparate to end it all I sat in my room with a razor blade and cried.  That was it, it was the end of my existance.  As I sat there ready to end my life I said "If there truely is a God out there show me why I shouldn't do this.  Because this life is not worth living."  Just then a peace that I had never felt came to me and a quite voice spoke to me.  Not audiably, but to my spirit.  Words I didn't fully understand, but knew they spoke peace.

  All the above transpired and lead up to this night 11 years ago.  I attended a Thanksgiving celebration at the Rose Garden with several thousand other believers.  When they gave the opportunity to ask Jesus to come into my heart I took it without hesitation or fear.  I had a great family, the Lee's, who took me to church every Wednesday and Sunday.  They also allowed me to hang out with them and took me along to any church function they were going to.  They loved me just as I was.  I was a little rough around the edges to say the least.  Dave Lee (the Dad) knew how rough around the edges I was because he was my Biology teacher and knew me before the change.  I was in the same graduating class as his middle son, Brandon.  I dated his eldest son, LeRoy (after getting saved) for a time.  Colleen (the Mom) was a great friend and role model.  The youngest son, Larry was a kick to talk to (he was in grade school then).  I look at them as my spiritual family.  I learned a lot from them about living as a Christian.  Never will I forget how they helped shape who I am today as a believer.

  I may not be the best and God knows I have room for improvement.  But I cannot help but think back on what life would be like without the change I made 11 years ago and the family who helped me make it.  Had I made a different decision life would be different in a bad way.  I am glad that I made the choice to follow Christ.  Maybe one day I will get the opportunity to help someone and support them in their decision to follow Christ.

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  Some other people who helped me along the way: Jenny, Mondo & Angela, Tony, Darla, KimSa, Kim, Gina, Laurie, Micha, Lori & Abe, Bob & Sherry, Summer, Amy...I am sure there are others, but it is late and that is all the come to mind right now.

  Currently my in-laws are a great bunch of believers helping me learn to live what I believe.  Along with my many cool friends from church, The Neighborhood Chruch.

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